I was SO dreading Halloween.
Halloween was MY holiday. My favorite HOLIDAY. I mean for pete's sake, I established Falloween for the past TEN YEARS to garner excitement for the day. I was the one who made elaborate treats, elaborate costumes, elaborate "excitement" for everyone involved. Even BEFORE I had kids.
So I was hurt this year. Hurt that the costume I had planned for my kids, and actually made for Kaya, was vetoed.
They are with dad this year. The ultra-sticker stabber of divorce. It made me sad. The kids told me that dad already ordered their costumes so my plans were out the window---because it was "dad's day". I wanted to say something, but kept my mouth closed.
I swallowed my pride and went to his house for "trick-or-treat".
it was kind of nice being the "visiting" parent and not have to deal with the costume malfunctions.
it was kind of nice being the "visiting" mom.....which made them so excited to see me.
it was kind of nice being the "visiting" parent...who had tons of fun with them getting candy but not the one that had to get them to bed after they had all of that candy.
it was kind of nice visiting with all of my "old" neighbors and enjoying them....without worrying about what my kids were doing.
Yes, it's hard. It's hard not having my kids each night......but I'm going to count my blessings tonight for all the GOOD THINGS that happened.
It is a different way of life, a different perspective....but it is all good....thanks to all of you.