“Patience is waiting. Not passively waiting. That is laziness. But to keep going when the going is hard and slow - that is patience.”
It is going slow. It is going hard. For my friends wondering about me that is it. I keep thinking, "God, am I your modern-day Job? I'm not sure how much more I can handle?"
Not to dismiss the great struggles Job faced....I'm not there YET.....but I do wonder.
What is getting me through this? Puzzles. Truly...puzzles. Puzzles that I used to hate. Puzzles that I begrudgingly put together for my daughter who has a true talent for putting the pieces together. Puzzles---that my parents used to work on and I always thought, "How boring?"
But as I go through this divorce/custody issue.....puzzles are my lifesaver.
Like the one in the picture. A 1000 piece puzzle.....that I escape to when I just think I can't take it anymore.
Because as "put-together" as I would like to seem......everything is out of control. And puzzles are one thing I have to be patient with and they will soon come together to form a perfect picture.
Monday, July 25, 2011
Monday, July 18, 2011
I took the kids to the butterfly festival at the Chattahoochee Nature Center a few days ago. Once we got there---they had a blast. Even with grumpy Zander....it didn't take long for him to be in his element and love every minute of it.
But as I watched my sweet kids, I also noticed (for the 100th time) how different they are. Zan is the rule follower. He wants to check things out before he goes on ahead. Kaya, well she has a spirit of her own. Why would you worry about going on a path? Yes, there is a paved path but there is a whole world of adventure ahead!
She cannot resist a path. Even a less-traveled one. If there is a path to go somewhere she WILL take it. No matter if it is against the rules!
I finally made her stop taking the undiscovered paths. Just because the only way to get out of the last one was to climb a fence.
You can tell how happy she was with that decision.
I hope she keeps that spirit. I hope she wants to trek forward no matter what. So what if there is a fence to climb over? I hope and pray she still wants to go and overcome whatever she comes her way.
Trek forward sweet little girl. Take that path less taken---it will make a world of difference.
Sunday, July 10, 2011
My insides are churning. I'm a nervous wreck. Court awaits me and I don't know what to expect & am uncertain about the certain changes that will happen. Soon. Very soon.
So I call some of my closest friends. I am so lucky. So lucky that I have a handful of girls that would fight to the ends of the earth for me. Yes me, little old me. That makes me so grateful. They seem like little angels of encouragement.
And one of those dear friends says something to me that was the most incredible compliment I have ever heard.
"You know they were talking today at church about joyfulness. About people finding joy in everything. And I kept thinking of you. You are always joyful, joyful, joyful no matter what- even with all of the terrible things that have happened to you." I started crying immediately---tears of joys, I suppose. That comment hit home with me because it felt so true. And it made me even more joyful to have a friend that knew that about me--I've been smiling ever since.
It was just the cup of "joyfulness" I needed.
After you read this, count your blessings. I bet you can find joy in all of the great things in your life too. I'm counting mine tonight. No matter what happens in my life I know I will have wonderful friends that always bring me joy.