Wednesday, September 17, 2008

sometimes life isn't fair

Even a happy life cannot be without a measure of darkness, and the word happy would lose its meaning if it were not balanced by sadness. It is far better to take things as they come along with patience and equanimity.

-Carl Jung

Thanks so much to all of you for your support, emails, and help concerning my medical condition. I could finally see some light at the end of the tunnel. My surgery was less than two weeks away. The pain medication could keep me holding on until then.

So I thought.

A couple of days ago I got a call that the surgery had been postponed. Not for a day, not for a week, but for 3 weeks from the original date. I was devastated. I'm sure my doctor can't believe I am actually geared up and ready to have surgery..... I also don't think he can believe the severity of pain I'm in and how each day just drags on.

I was so upset the day I got the call that Matt called and pleaded with the doctor to please move it up some for me. We still haven't heard if that will happen but just the fact that my husband was so sweet and attentive to my needs makes me feel better.

So, until I hear anything else I'm gonna pray for patience and that the pain will subside enough to let me get through the next month without being miserable. But even though I'm trying to stay positive, I just want to shout out, "Sometimes, life isn't fair!"


RYD said...

I always say, "Everything happens for a reason." Who knows - maybe at the time of your scheduled surgery your blood flow in that area would have been great and recovery would have been difficult. Or maybe one of your kids (God forbid) will have a cold and won't be able to snuggle you. You just never know. I know this must be excruciating for you, and I'm so sorry. Hang in there - we're all pulling for you!

RYD said...

I just wanted to clarify - I meant that maybe these things would have happened and that is the reason the surgery date got moved. So that your family and friends could be there to support you and so you could have a speedy recovery. Does that make sense? I hope so! Feel better very, very soon, CK.

JennyB said...

oh dear friend! this makes me hurt for you. I will scream with you, "This is not FAIR!" l hope (along with ryd) that the circumstances surrounding your surgery will work out perfectly. I will also be praying for survival of the daily pain.

craftykorisa said...

Thank you both so much.....I'll keep you posted.

Julie O said...

Hi lady! I have been thinking about you. Meaghan has been keeping me updated. I hope they can schedule the surgery asap, so you don't have to deal with the pain any longer! Im keeping you in my prayers, and hang in there :)